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Shadowfireninja
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After the suicide attempt: the update

Posted by Shadowfireninja - July 26th, 2024


Soooo...it's been about 2 years since that last blog, and it's been...mixed, to say the least.

Russia vs. Ukraine, Covid died, And I passed high school.


I could start by saying I got addicted to using discord since 2022, and that I've tried and failed many times to have successfull relationships, there were good and bad times, but lately, it's just been...irratating, to put it simply.


My parents put me in internships in hotels, because there aren't many open sectors over here, which I hated.

Was first in a hotel named the JW Marriott, doing rotations in F&B, hated it, bf cheated and "replaced" me (his own words), because I barely spent any of my remaining free time with me (did 8 hours shifts from Mon to sat, treated piss poorly, and jobs felt a bit degrading, had to wake up at 5:30, 2 hour long trip on a van). Second one went better, but a notion has been scemented: NEVER DOING HOSPITALITY AGAIN, EVEN IN SMALL UNI SIDE GIGS.


Lately, since March 26th, got me a new boyfriend, met face to face once, will pay for his ticket to France for christmas, gonna studi history in uni for like, 3 years, and, well, plan the future with my boo, I guess.


Sooooo, yeah. Life has been rocky, but frankly, I think it was worth it to keep on living. Gonna try new indentities and sexual orientations, try new fashions, and more Japanese cuisine, lots more to try I gues.


Life is hard, it's complicated. But I learned the big lesson: "No matter how deep you fall, it always eventually stops. The is always an end to a losing streak. And at some points, things start looking up again."


I personally would like to thank EVERYBODY here for talking me out of this, starting with Cyberdevil, Tom Fulp, and a few other I gotta catch the names of again.


Thank you Newgrounds. I'll see you all on my first day of University!


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Hey, this may be the first time I’ve heard about you, but I’m really glad you’re okay, and getting better.

If you’re feeling down again, maybe find a professional like a therapist on Betterhelp; or maybe find a hobby like DnD or something. Anyways, hope you find happiness at Uni!

You've been through some turbulent times for sure... glad to hear you got through this lows; things seem to be looking up a bit. Progress definitely is gradual, bit by bit, day by day. It takes a while to lift then suddenly... up up and away!

Good luck with the university stuff; next chapter!

It can take many months to sail out through these hardships. If you can smile, or at least take care of yourself in the lowest periods of time in your life, then you understand life.

Do whatever you. An in university.